ohh shit wat ive done ..
wat happen to me .
yeah i no it is becoz i still love him ..
i realy2 love him .
with all my heart ..
oh my god i want him . i no it wont happen becoz i hve another one .. but he is still my love till forever . i need him to survive . oh god i cant sleep ..today my ex ask me to sent him to jetty .
i juz came n brought him there ..
when i am arrive he walk to my car wit his three fren .. n d saddest one he told his friend to sit front with me .. it was so sad .. i juz smile but inside my heart it was pain . its like make my heart bomb ! oh god then he ask me to go to d perumahan kastam . i juz go n when arrive i feel so weird when juz him go out to d house .. n then i ask his fren they tell me dats diz iz his ex gurl house .his first love n now they r togheter back
im so sad but i didnt show it to them .. i juz laugh n ask them again n again . one of their fren ask him is he love her ?? then he said yeah she is is his true love n he loves her so much . then my heart got crack .. ohh damn i hate when my eye full of water . i cant stop it but i am hppy bcoz i didnt cry front of them .ohh shit it was so ..uh if i cry dat time they will find out dat i stil love him ..it was so surprised dat i didnt cry ...and then i juz laugh in d car n laugh until i feel gud but its stil feel bad i dunno why mayb becoz i feel dat i cant make him happy wit me before .. n then his cousin want to clled him but i ask him not to do .. i said let them ... mayb they missed each other . let them ... n he let them ...then he is so late .
i can feel dat they r so happy inside .. n i make my heart hapy with play wit his fren ... i juz making laugh it was not my true laugh . it was so fake but they didnt relize it .huh im such an actor rite .. n then his cousin go and called him becoz they r lated n afraid they might miss their ferry .
after he arrive i juz drove them to jetty n shake their hand juz like brothers n sister ,
then i go n go with my heart dats full of pain ..
it so hurt ,.
i feel like cant breath ..i cry inside my car n tell my heart to stop thinking of him ...it was so sad n will b my saddest day ,,..
i cry until dis nite ,,.
i still cant forget himm ..
i miss n love him ..
i dunno wat to do now ..
i juz can wait n let time be ..
juz wait n wait
when will my heart will stop think of him .
now i have admit dat i have another one and ill love him like i love him ..
chaiyok!!!.
hemmm
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